When I Disappear

from Unbecoming by Missing Monica

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Staring in wide-eyed wonder at things beyond all I can understand
All that they find so easy to be is not natural in my hands
Yet you cannot deny, each insanity’s just different reactions to the same demands.

When holding on gets hard it’s easier to just let go
(And disappear)
And falling into madness makes more sense of what you know to be so true.

Taking something from nothing, I separate from all the nonsense I leave behind.
Strange conflicts of truth that shatter the heart of all that was mine.
Now they set me free from webs of deceit to a simplicity your complex equations never will define.

Falling into madness
Bright lights in the darkness
To lead me on into senselessness
Delusions of what might be
Now fading into memory
There’s nothing left here for me.

If I disappear, would you not miss me, would you see me?
If I disappear, would you believe me, would you hear me?

As I disappear, you do not hear me, you don’t miss me
As I disappear, you do not see me, you don’t believe me

When I disappear, you won’t believe me, you won’t hear me
When I disappear, you will not miss me, you won’t see me fade away.

When holding on gets hard it’s easy to let go
And madness makes more sense of everything you know.

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from Unbecoming, released September 29, 2023

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